Sunday, 25 March 2012

March 25, 2012

Today I realised just how long it has been since I've written a blog post, so here it is !

I was going through a couple of tumblr blogs of girls who I must admit I don't really know - I've only met them a few times or just know them over facebook or whatever. These girls suffer from bipolar disorder like myself, or other mental illnesses, and it made me realise just how lucky I am. These girls seem to struggle with stability in terms of relationships, work, sleeping, eating, etc. my heart truly goes out to them. Even though I went through a really hard time when I was diagnosed solely with depression and treated only with antidepressants, as soon as I got the correct diagnosis and put on the right medication my life improved so drastically. I do have to put up with horrible side effects, but I have gained so much that I would never consider going back to how I was before. I have an amazing boyfriend who I live with and have been with for over 2 years, and loves me despite all my craziness and I am forever grateful for that. I have an amazing relationship with my beautiful parents and siblings who don't even think twice about my silly moods and give me so many hugs when I'm sad. I am just about to start a full time job at a place that I enjoy working at, and work with awesome people, with a boss who understands I have issues sometimes. So to anyone out there that is suffering with a mental illness. . I know I always say this, but it is so worth taking the time to go to the doctor and trying to get help because life doesn't have to revolve around what mood your brain decides to put you in.

I guess the only really significant thing that I'm dealing with at the moment is migraines. . I am having them around 3 or 4 days a week and it's driving me nuts. The nausea, light and sound sensitivity, how walking making my head pound more. . Urgh ! I started a blood pressure medication a week or two ago to try and help but the side effects were too much. I became hideously depressed and tired and so I gave up after 4 days. I start a new medication this week which will hopefully help ! It's an anticonvulsant called topiramate, and one of the side effects is weight loss which I hope I have, considering I have put on a bit of weight due to the valproate I take :(

Anyway, if anyone has any topics they'd like me to write about - feel free to contact me ! I am running out of ideas.

Thanks for reading :D

<3 B


  1. Hope the new meds help :) I go a bit crazy my self sometimes and having someone who loves you there is priceless.

    I'm probably a tad late to the game and you may have covered this, but how long were you on your meds before they started to work? I'm told it can make it worse before get it gets better.


  2. It is hard, because usually you have to stop old meds before you start new meds so in the past it did get much worse before it got better, and it usually took atleast 2 weeks for the new meds to kick in. This time won't be so bad because it's an add on medication so there won't be any drug free period in between :)